I haven’t been productive in nearly a year. I spend each day lost in my own mind, and angry at myself because of it, driving myself into a deeper depression, thus making myself even less productive. I’ve become a burden to myself. I want to fix it but I can’t. I don’t know how, or where to start. I don’t feel useful, yet at the same time I feel so completely overwhelmed. Kind of like a truck stuck in the mud. The faster the tires spin, the deeper they sink.
I can’t stop hating myself until I fix myself.
I can’t fix myself if I can’t find myself.
I can’t find myself when I don’t know who I am.
But how can I hate someone that I don’t even know?